I wrote this poem on a very overcast, sweltering day in early July of 2010. The feelings of inadequacy coupled with the quiet determination to want what’s best for yourself I think is normal in life. The: “there’s got to be more in store for me out there somewhere.” Is honestly a thought I think everyone has at one point or another. For me, this was one of the first real crossroads of my life (and it wouldn’t be the last). For me, looking back on this poem it’s raw, honest and relatable to any woman who looked herself in the mirror and said “Why me? Why now? What next?”
My favorite line comes at the end when I finally admitted you can’t real fail others, you can only fail yourself.
So without further delay, I give you the second poem of my ‘The Misunderstood’ series ‘Confessions of a Broken Heart’…enjoy!
Confessions of a Broken Heart (7/8/10)
“It’d rather be strong enough to stand on my own two feet,
Then to drown in anything that wishes to hold me down in a sea of masked emotions and unspoken self-defeat.
It is but a woman’s choice to chose between her sweet disposition and self respect from people and things whom do not take her verses which she sings to heart.
Pain is keeping quiet,
Pain is holding back,
Pain is confining and resigning yourself to a place which no longer serves you and allows you to grow.
Misery is holding on to people and things you have no control over,
Misery is keeping ties simply because they’re the only ones you know.
Strength is taking that leap off a plane and in an instant hoping your parachute works,
Strength is taking risks and letting go despite fear of what beyond what’s known lurks.
Faith is believing that failures in situations are only temporary but the success and glory you’ll find from never giving up through adversity will last forever.
Faith is believing what’s meant to be will always be and we’re exactly at this moment where we are supposed to be in the grand scheme of things.
Acceptance is knowing somethings will flee forever never to return and believing it is for the best.
Acceptance is gratitude for the good and the bad life brings.
Acceptance values blessings and lessons can be taken from times of joy and distress.
Disappointment breeds gentle, humble, humility.
Dignity allows restraint from regret.
True heartache can never come from knowing you failed one person,
True heartache comes in knowing you sold yourself short and failed yourself.”
-Brittany Hackett Schmidt
Well, what are your thoughts? Please drop me a line in the comments below and let me know what you think! Have a blessed week ahead!
Love you. Mean it.