In Search Of A Manifest Destiny

Good Evening; Long Time No Chat…

In one of my favorite movies of all time, Forrest Gump both opens and closes with the image of a white feather floating through the air. I remember being a kid, watching this movie with my Mother and being in awe as the feather swirled and twirled through the air, before coming to rest in Forrest’s suitcase. It stays there till the end of the movie, as the audience watches as it flies back up into the air, helping to symbolize the cycle that has now been completed—specifically, the cycle of life and death, and one of new beginnings. After all, the movie ends with Forrest’s son going off to his first day of school just like Forrest did at the beginning of the movie. Even the bus driver, Dorothy Harris’ daughter, is fulfilling the same role for little Forrest that her Mother fulfilled for his Father all those years ago.

One of my favorite quotes in the whole movie symbolizes this as Forrest says straight out: “I don’t know if we each have a destiny, or if we’re all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze.”. As life chugs on it’s very hard not to ponder such words when things in life happen to us, often without explanation. We wonder quite often if this is our destiny or if we really are like the first explorers of the New World trying to navigate unfamiliar seas that come in the form of places, things, and people that are new to us.

Destiny is a very loaded word for me, I’ve often chased many pursuits and many careers wondering if what I was in fact doing fulfilling a higher purpose that I was set out to complete before coming here. I’d like to think in my every day interactions with people, namely family and friends, I am fulfilling this kind of manifest destiny of what I came here to do. There are days, however, I feel it takes all of me just to stay treading above water. Days like this I find it extremely easy to drown in feelings of “am I doing this right? This life thing?”. I think in many ways so many of us are preoccupied with fulfilling a destiny that maybe we’re overthinking it entirely. Maybe, by searching for our “destiny“ we are missing out on life’s blessings not to mention so many teachable moments that serve as lessons.

Deciding to leave a state you have lived in for the last 32 years of your life could either be seen as really brave or really foolish. You’ve established yourself haven’t you? Why would you leave everything you knew behind to chase some crazy dream that you’ve had since you were a kid? The thing about life and choices is that everybody is going to have a different opinion on them. The important thing is that you are in fact authentic. I think the key when it comes to manifesting our true destiny is in doing things that are in line with our higher self. The pandemic was hard, I fell into some serious writers block, struggled mentally and emotionally but emerged like a diamond from the pressure. A year ago this past June; Tom and I left New Jersey for good and are now proud South Carolinians.

This past year has been full of so many blessings; my heart is filled with gratitude and joy to be where we finally feel home. To see us thriving personally, professionally and spiritually in a way I’ve always dreamed we would is magical. My new city and my forever home is everything I could ever have imagined and more. Now that I’m settled I plan to focus more on this blog. I am living my truth; I’m also going to be posting links to my show ‘CarolinaFandomwhich I host with my buddies Jeff and Cowboy Joe. I’ve made friends, grown tremendously at work professionally and I’ve even had some visits from my family too. I think anybody who boldly can step out and live their truth regardless of what others may say or think of them is in its own way fulfilling your destiny. My 610 mile drive away from everything I’ve grown up knowing and loving in pursuit of a better life for myself and my family it’s authentic.

I thank those of you who’ve stayed with me and didn’t unfollowed me during my interlude from blogging. I am in such a wonderful frame of mind and I am happy to be back sharing my life, and thoughts with each of you!

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